seems like im really isolated from the world like that. i mean people have so many things happening and enjoying in their lives and what am i doing here. nothing. i dunno. its like i belong somewher but i don't belong somewhere.

take for example, i have a cca. band. im definately into it, as in attending it and stuff. but im not hanging out with any people or getting to know more about them. its like band is band. and nothing else. can someone tell me what the hell i am doing? seriously, why arent i out with them. doing all the things they do. i don't know.

another example. im in my class. but the thing is i do't hang out with anyone of them. i have no idea what everyone is up to and im not a part of it. its like im part of something yet not part of something. am i hiding away? or is it just me that no one wants to be with?

i don't get it. whats wrong with me and my life? i feel so out. what can i do?

randy has all these things that i don't know of. audrey has all her activities that i never seem to know. joanne has her boyfriend and stuff. well, thats basically what i know about my section. isnt it kinda sad? no. acutally its very sad.

my life is totally screwed up. i don't know whats going on. should really get a hang of it. where does my heart lies? everywhere? i think so.

oh god. i need enlightenment. help me!