well, long time no blog. hahaz. anywayz, last week was a very stressful week, but hehz, i got over it. i managed to survive. with relatively satisfactory results too. yeah. quite happy lorz. then horz, i handed in my formal report late. supposed to be hand in last friday, i hand in this monday. the teacher kinda pissed off huhz. oh well, don't really care. as long as he doesn't know what im thinking. hahahaz. very bad horz. i know. :P

hmmm... lets see. last friday stayed overnight at ching han's house with samuel and lok tuan. lok tuan morning go home liaoz. i and sam stayed for about 2 hours later then left. me and sam went lot1 long john eat breakfast and talk. ok, randy, please don't tell anyone horz. hahahaz, i pon sectionals cause i was talking to samuel. yup. thats it. friends still come 1st i guess. gonna get scolded? hopefully not. then went home and sleep for about an hour and a half then go my cousin house at yew tee lorz. slacked there the whole day. abit boring though. but, still gotta find time for cousins. i don't know what i missed out sia. cause just feel like they talking something that i don't know. haiz. i don't wanna be left out again! not again! everywhere lehz! sianz lorz.

sam came to think that its true that i really hate myself thats why im like that and all the things around me is like that. well, we talked about religion, god and friends. just still don't understand him well also larz. can't know everything of everyone. pisses me off! hahahaz. ok larz. just feel not good about it lorz. haiz. he never tell me he got church camp. sianz. then ching han, i wonder where he went on tue when i said i wanna go his house. end up didn't go, cause he still outside. arhz! haiz. can't blame anyone. its my fault. im just pissed with myself bahz. okokok, stop the negativities.

sunday wan really slack. i procrastinate the report for the whole day and finally finished at midnight. hahaz. oh yar, i went to val's friend hse to help her clean up her project and carry her model home. then gotta take a cab home cause too late no bus.

monday went to imm with chichi and shu xian. enjoyed the time there larz. i must thank jesslyn and lay hong for helping me print my report! sorry to trouble them sia. they run here run there for me. hehez. thanx ppls. tue was yesterday. what did i do?

oh, it was a shitty day larz. kinda shitty. cause the whole day like wasted doing nothing. arhz! hate it man. not even study in school lorz, i mean no proper lecture to look forward to. im not a dork fyi. just feel that lessons are important. yup.

today i went out with eileen and lay hong to bugis. resisted buying a bag, and adidas jacket which cost only $50!!! yup. then i think gonna buy snk jacket when the price drops further bahz. hahahaz. still got managing money issues sia. that bad, very bad.

final thing about school/studies. next monday got case study gotta hand in i haven started. wish me luck sia. doing about some can food and health stuff. sounds interesting? not sure. hopefull its easy.

lok tuan always sooo busy de. very sian lehz. haiz. or im slacking too much? hahahaz. i guess.

ok. i think i shall talk something about band. aiya. last sectionals i went, i was kinda not happy about audrey and jo larz. like they say about raf then jo also like that. i mean go in the middle of sectionals. not fair sia. maybe don't know the full details bahz. and randy, if you are reading this, pls keep it to yourself. cause don't really want anyone else to know. thanx. then horz. randy arhz, not to say you larz. never practice your fantasy variation part. though you very good de. aiyo. oh well, i should say about myself too rights. hahaz. i also gotta practice. so bad at the star wars part. eh, im abit sorry that you didn't get that part. know you really wanted it. i don't really look forward to getting that part larz. but just gotta do it lorz. hope nobody is unhappy about giving that difficult timpani part to a noob. im trying my best kz. wish me luck. then horz. don't know why raf keep on skipping lehz. kim seng? work? i really don't know. gotta know the facts before jumping into conclusions right? the juniors also lehz. all disappear. really disappointed about them larz. don't want talk about them lorz. oh well, im in not much position to lecture them but i can have my own views rights? though im not a good player i know that. just wish that percussion section wouldnt fall. missed those times when jermaine talks about life before band. when i was sitting with her outsude the band room warming up. and i also missed those late sectionals, when we can still sleep and band room awhile and also have breakfast! a feast! hahahaz. now things are just different. i don't like the current point of my life lorz/larz. anything about band, maybe say next time lez. cant think of anything else.

about class and clique, well, im staying with a clique to 2 girls currently lorz. they kinda nice. then i guess im not gonna really bond and mix and mingle well with them larz. don't want to. know that it will somehow jepordise my future in some ways. but gotta stick to being myself. true to myself and others. so yar. don't really see any potential long term friends here.

seconday school and primary school is still the best. oh yar. forgot to say something. this monday i met my primary school close friend, boon tat. cool. havent seen him for an extreme long time lez. really glad and overjoyed. im not gay! then while talking to him, i saw seconday school friend, wei ling. she late for lessons again. hahahaz. then in school met band shirley, i missed her, as in didnt see her cause i was spacing. then waved to me. yup. then nearing library, i saw kathleen, my sec school friend. just scolded her name then say hi only. in the library, i saw my class shirley. yup. she helped me i helped her. thats it. i went school earlier to print report, but failed. cause library printer got problem. thats why gotta ma fan lh and jess.

ok, this is a really long blog post. so, with no further ado (don't know spell wrong or not), i shall end it here. no offense. out.

ok. i really gotta keep this short, cause i have to study for tomorrow's test. i have test on wed, test on thurs and a report which is not half way done due on thurs. im dead meat. hahaz. sianz. ok. hmm, mind blogged today, meaning i blogged in my mind on way home, on the bus. was thinking and thinking. yup. then actually wanna blog all in de. but don't know if i should. and also i have no time! 3 chapters! havent start! wish me luck kz.

band band band, clique clique clique, people people people, class class class, friends friends friends. im crazy arent i.

one think i think i can discribe myself i using three words. I hate myself. well, don't know if thats really true. im still debating it out. silly huhz.

lotsa other stuff larz. like my study style, my life, everything! omg! i don't know what to say. erm. shit. kkz. thats all bahz.

try to blog more often. yeah.

ok. There seems to be so many things that i wanna say but then theres no time. so i will cut it short.

1st, yesterday was nellie's bday. she asked me to cut hair with her. but luckily i bailed out. ok and then we went our seperate ways. thats basically it when meeting her. before meeting her, i was at wei jie's house. actually was planning to do some school work at yew tee de. but then ok larz, manage to complete a tiny little bit. yup. went to band after meeting nellie. after band i was on my way home, just waiting for bus, i saw afiq. he didnt come for band. cause he has some film making stuff going on. when i reached home, nellie ask if i could go and talk with her. ok, we chatted, i cheered her up. yeah! and we went home. hahaz, at least her bday wasnt spent alone like mine.

kinda sad thinking about my bday. so lonely. only like 1 or 2 people wish me on the day. haiz. anywayz. soon, my bday coming again. 20 feb. hahahaz. ok.

yar. wanna say something. i am seriously giving up hope on poly friends. seriously. no turning back man. its so not worth it. no one cares and no one treasures me. just feel so unwanted and i don't fit in. arhz! dumping my clique and be a loner maybe? well, i don't feel like being one. so, i guess just have to make do with my current situation. saded huhz? yar i think so too. how fun and happy i was in primary and secondary school. with less hypocrites. haiz. oh well. doesn't matter. as long as i have my secondary and primary school friends, who needs them. probably just for work lorz. im like one hypocrite myself rights? whatever.

hmm, oh yar. bought 2 pairs of slippers. hehez. forgot what else to say lez. oh. one thing. you see, 8th nov is lok tuan bday, 9th is valerie's mum, 10th is nellie's and 11th is my uncle's. hahaz. cool huhz. oh well.

yes. almost forgot. i just finished watching the high school musical and it rox! i wanna learn how to street dance. hopefully soon. yeah. nellie's cousin is a dancer. think can get help from there.

saded, got 3 reports, 3 datasheets to complete and i haven't started on them! arhz! dieing man. holy crap! anywayz, today, as in saturday, i have sectionals at 9.30, so i better get some sleep now and hope that i'm not late tomorrow! wish me luck. oh, im going out with my cousins tomorrow. yup. and i don't know if i will be working at wine arcade tomorrow. cause the boss haven't called me. haiz. just wanna earn some extra income.

ok, basically thats it. might have left something out. but see how it goes. cya. nights nights. and take care everyone!

one final thing. i found my little hippo toy. doubt i blogged it the last time about this. im happy about it! hahahaz. don't make fun of me kz. everyone has their own soft and erm, other side? bye.

well. my blog is now known to 2 people. that is lok tuan and randy. both of them found me. hahaz. cool huhz. i wonder who else will find me. anywayz, i might not update often so be prepared. hahaz.

ok, coming week is an elearning week for me. well, there are lotsa things to do online sia. besides that, i even have 3 reports that i have to finish before school reopens. aw man. saded. sianz. ok. i don't know what to blog liao lorz.

hmm, today went to eat subway with valerie and wei jie. then i don't know if next week the saturday im working at the wine arcade where both of them are working at. hopefully. then i will have extra income. hehehez. then can save more or buy more stuff.

currently now saving lorz. i mean like need to save larz. its important. haiz. supposed to be able to get a new phone 1. but then my father not changing his service, m1, starhub, singtel. sad sia. want a new phone! the nokia 6280! my plan ends next year jan sia. have to wait so long. cause i wanna change the ling to be under my name. currently its under my dad's name lorz. oh well, just gotta wait.

then that time i though my dad say internet plan ending liaoz say wanna change. then now ask him he say where got. wa liaoz, feel like killing him sia. hahahaz. no larz. just joking. oh, lok tuan ask me check if i got the starhub cable, if i remember correctly. then horz, my father say should have larz. he say got. hahaz. ok.

i want i new phone! 2 shoes! 1 slipper! 1 wardrobe! 1 bed! 1 tv! new wardrobe contents! hmm, what else. i think thats it for the time being larz. haiz. very greedy horz. but then no money! arhz! oh well. save save save. below im gonna end with lindsay lohan, i want you to want me lyrics. hahaz. don't know how to put songs so no choice. :P so, thats all folks. bye.

Lindsay Lohan I Want You To Want Me Lyrics

Verse 1:
I want you to want me
I need you to need me
I love you to love me
I'm begging you to beg me

I want you to want me
I need you to need me
I love you to love me

Pre Chorus:
Shine up my high heel shoes
Put on a Brand new shirt
Get home early from work and
If say that you love me

Chorus:
Didn't I,Didn't I,Didn't I,
see you cryin.
Oh Didn't I,Didn't I,Didn't I,
see you cryin.
Feeling all alone without a friend you know feel like dyin'
Oh Didn't I,Didn't I,Didn't I,
see you cryin.

Verse 2:
I want you to want me
I need you to need me
I love you to love me
I'm begin you to beg me

Pre Chorus:
Shine off my hot new shoes
Put on a Brand new shirt
Get home early from work and
If say that you love me

Chorus:
Didn't I,Didn't I,Didn't I,
see you cryin.
Oh Didn't I,Didn't I,Didn't I,
see you cryin.
Feeling all alone without a friend you know feel like dyin'
Oh Didn't I,Didn't I,Didn't I,
see you cryin.

Verse 3:
Feeling all alone without a friend you know you feel like dyin'
Didn't I,Didn't I,Didn't I,
see you cryin.
Chorus:
I want you to want me
I need you to need me
I love you to love me
Im beggin yo to beg me

Pre Chorus:
I want you to want me
I want you to want me
I want you to want me
I want you to want me

Ending:
I want you!
I want you!
oh!!!!!