hiz, i'm back. after such a long time, i finally updated this blog again. currently hungry but then nothing to eat. ching han left my house not long ago, he just came to use the internet. haiz. can't go anywhere to eat. sianz lorz.

i'm really tried. tried of everything thats going on or not going on at all in my life. its sucks totally. i still feel alone as ever. as if there's no one to accompany me through life. i mean like, every friends seems to come and go. No one to confine to. i don't think there is any one who will accept who i am and listens to me. life is just a lonely journey. oh god. i'm feel all frustrated and vexed. theres too much thinking going on in my brain. sometimes i just wish i can stop all these nonsense in my head. so that people wouldn't think that i am so fan ren. its not that i want to fan people. its just these brain of mine.

i hope i can meet jermaine soon and talk to her. hope that she can advise me and tell me how to handle all these stuff. i think she can bahz. not sure though. just know that she is a good senior who cares. jocelyn too. haiz. i miss the seniors.

anywayz, i'm distracted now. gonna watch heroes. feels like theres no school tomorrow, but there is. saded. oh well.

i shant say too much on band stuff. finding it a hassle. too many things to say and explain. all these i shall forgo. im trying not to feel guilty about band stuff. haiz.

fyp sucks.

what else? next time bahz. i don't know how long is it gonna be before i blog again.